The frustrations and irregularites continue unabated. The past week or so has been a real test of my patience and tolerance. As I have said before, I may have the patience of a saint, but I will never be a martyr to anyone, myself included. My decision to switch degrees and, just as importantly, universities, is becoming more and more necessary as time goes on. My personal tutor and I have a good relationship, and although she is saddened that my decision to switch has been in part influenced by at least one of the departments at the university, I am pleased that she also respects my decision to do what is right for me, and admires the fact that I have been pro-active enough to do something about my disenchantment. Subsequently, she has provided me with a glowing reference to support my re-application to UCAS pending the switch. I received much higher grades for my first semsester than I anticipated, so I am hoping to be accepted without any fuss. I could go into detail as to what hs further influenced this action, but quite frankly, I am tired of hearing my own voice on this, and I am certain you are all just as sick of reading about it too.
Last weekend, I submitted my UCAS application accordingly, and all being well, I will be commencing my new degree in
History, Media and Cultural Studies at the
University of West England in Bristol. Please, dear readers, wish me luck. Thank you.
In other news:
On Tuesday night, your friendly ally and comrade in academia here pulled off a very courageous and successful coup, which left me feeling rather satisfied and, well, relieved, to be honest. Along with a fellow (hearing) BSL user, I taught a group of students the rudimentary essentials of a Deaf Awareness and Sign Language course. This was the first of two sessions, and the feedback was extraordinarily pleasing. The class were engaged, stimulated and vibrant, thirsty for what we had to teach and definitely wanted more. The two-hour class was held in the evening, and the weather was absolutely foul, and yet this deterred no one. We had a list of the names of those who had signed up for the classes in advance, and more turned up on the night. This pleased us both enormously.
The reason I consider this to be quite a coup for me personally is because I have not used any of my Sign Language skills properly for a number of years. The last time I used them in any professional or personal setting was at the funeral of my twin sister, Carolien, as she too was profoundly deaf. Many of our hearing impaired friends came to the funeral, which I signed throughout. I have actively avoided the deaf community ever since that day almost 6½ years ago. Our second session is this Tuesday evening, and we have already been asked if we can run longer and more detailed, informative courses for the students. I was asked myself why I decided to teach the Deaf Awareness and Sign Language course. I explained that I used to teach Deaf Awareness before, but over a 12 week period, and that although my Sign Language skills are up to Level 2, however rusty, I know of only two others on campus who have the ability to sign, however, one of these works elsewhere in another very busy department, and the other who is assisting with the classes is in her penultimate year and on placement, which takes up a great deal of her time. After the frustrations I have endured at the hands of Learning Support, I decided again to do something pro-active about this. Rather than leave these people to fester in their own smug bile, I thought I would dip my toe into the pool, as it were, and see how it felt, with a view to making the difference needed between little or no appropriate support for disabled students and what I would have expected to be in place prior to commencing my studies as assured by the university's own literature. I just hope something good and worthwhile comes from this, excluding the much-needed boost to my own confidence as a Signer.
I am now considering popping along to the pub where the local Deafies meet once a month and dip my toe in there too. I do miss being part of the deaf community, as although I grew up in the hearing world, as one who has been hard of hearing for most of my life, which as many of you will be aware has become much worse over the past year or so to the point of needing much stronger hearing aids, I have always identified with the deaf and hearing impaired community better. This Friday (10 March) will be the next meeting. I had made a note of the monthly dates in my diary and spotted the date in there today. Whether I actually go is another matter entirely. My low self-esteem and heightened sense of social phobia cannot always be predicted, however, I have not ruled the evening out.
Have a great weekend, one and all!
Rachael.... ♥